This hasn't been such a wonderful year. Being hospitalized for two months must have been awful for Mom. I can't begin to imagine what it was like for her. No wonder she retreated into a state of 'hospital psychosis" At 83, the reality that you are not home, but in a hospital, where nobody really loves, or cares about you, must be insupportable. No wonder Mom insisted she was living in Helen Gorra's basement, or the airport, or a hotel, or Southhampton, etc. Can 'hospital psychosis' be a defense mechanism?
In 2010, I want to achieve more productivity: Thank God that the visiting nurse agreed to give Mom a 9 week extension on a home health attendant. This gives me nine weeks: just over two months, to get my plans in order. I wish to exercise both body and mind: lose at least 40 pounds; join a support group; write steadily; pass the bar exam and find a part time job in a local law firm.
If I am happier with myself, I will become more patient with Mom. In my defense, I have to say she can be rather selfish, but that is because I have allowed it. There is a way to break the cycle of codependency that began almost 52 years ago. It is time to make far more of my life, and time for her to do the same.
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